There are several things one can be appreciative of. For me, there are two things I’m extremely appreciative of above all this Thanksgiving, emotions and my girlfriend.
Being able to express emotions clear my muddled thoughts which cloud my judgement, rendering me unable to see the positives of situations. I think the easiest way to put it is that whenever I feel bad, and let’s say, there’s something I have to do, but it’s something I’m good at, I think I’ll do really bad, even though I’m good at it and nothing will actually happen. I just end up thinking the worst, completely forgetting that “I’m good at this, I’ll do this flawlessly.”
As for my girlfriend, she’s like a catalyst. When I can’t cheer myself up, drowning in a sea of negative thoughts. I look towards her as the caring woman she is, to seek comfort, to have her console me. She’s the shield that protects me from the storm, but also the spear that pierces through the clouds and makes way for the light, allowing it to shine through. She acts as the anchor of my ship, preventing me from drifting astray into madness.
The fact that humans can express their emotions is such a blessing. Just a singular facial expression conveys a story without that person having to say anything. I believe that expressing your emotions is the epitome of “Actions speak louder than words.” What I love about emotions especially is the ability to cry because it is something I constantly yearn for. Whenever I cry, I feel it wash away the filth that stains my heart. Personally, crying is as rare as the rain in a desert, so each time I cry, I cherish every second I take to cry, every tear I let go.
When I was younger, I was scolded for crying so I always repressed the need. After my girlfriend helped me see the good in things, I finally saw it. The first time I cried this year, I realized crying was good. Like I said earlier, it washes the stains off my heart. I can be more positive because of her, more happy, because of her.
All in all, I’m so appreciative of my girlfriend, more than she’ll ever know. She’s the reason I’m always positive, as mostly a pessimistic person, she helps me see the good in things. She keeps my head up, so instead of staring down at myself, I can look up toward the sun, the illuminating being that allows us to see the good ahead of us.
Appreciate every little thing, no matter how bad it may seem. Everything has something good inside of it. As I like to think, “Without light, there is no darkness.” In the darkness, we don’t see the path we’re taking, but there will always be the light at the end that awaits you.
More importantly, spend time with those around you that you hold dear, for they may provide something you’ve been looking for. Sometimes, we just look too far ahead or too far back to see what’s right in front of us.
